I'm so sorry to anyone that was following this blog when I disappeared. On December 16th, I found out I was pregnant. The good folks at the Optifast program immediately had me stop taking shakes and gave me a firm boot out of the program, but told me I could join them again once I had the baby.
To make a long story short, I lost the baby naturally on Feb. 1. I was 14 weeks. It was a very difficult time, and I spent the next two weeks sucking on my thumb, eating cadbury eggs and feeling sorry for myself. When I was able to pull myself together, I called the clinic and they took me right back. Today is my first official day back.
I have hemmed and hawed whether or not I should continue this blog. There are so many out there and I just didn't know if I had the energy to continue it. I have felt pretty defeated lately. Then, this morning I went on 3fatchicks.com - which I love because of how real it is. I saw some of my old threads and got back in touch with some of the people that I had been talking with. So many people search the net looking for advise. They just want to see what they are up against, and if I help just one person then this is all worth it.
So here I am. Again.
I start shakes again today. I go for my first "official" weigh-in tomorrow. I'm scared to see what I have done to myself since December 16th. All fingers are crossed that I haven't slidden to far back.
Cheers to beginning again! If I can do this again... someone out there reading this can do this too. It is yours to have. Go get it. Don't wait any more. Let's do this together.
